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2008-07-04 - 2:25 a.m.

just been watching hard candy with my dad and he didn't like the ending

said he didn't see how such a nasty guy would suddenly just kill himself

and i tried to explain that it was because he loved the woman

but john said he was too nasty to love anyone that much

and i said it wasn't about how much he loved her, he just loved her enough to... not so much 'care' what she thought... but to want to save her from what/who he is

and then i got a quote stuck in my head and i can't figure out where it's from

i said something about nobody ever thinks they're a bad person...

and i was trying to explain to my dad that the guy in the film didn't have to think about what he was doing while he was by himself, away from everyone in his house

he didn't think he was a bad person...

but no-one wants to hear the one person you love more than anything else in the world tell you you are actually a freak

it makes it true

which is why he killed himself

and which is also why i think dexter did very well to get over the fact harry killed himself, pretty much confirming that dexter too was a freak

i hate that word

but i do love that film

what am i talking about?

on a completely different note [well, hopefully a different, non-suicide-related note] i'm worried about james

more than usual

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