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i recently got 'me without you' on dvd
[as a present/bribe for graduating actually... did i tell you i graduated? it was ok really, the robes were awkward but the ceremony wasn't too scary and we had a lovely meal at the dolphin afterwards... my entire family was there... i wore a skirt... james kept whispering that he wanted to fuck me after he noticed my choice of hold-ups rather than tights underneath... good times]
and i watched it the other night
it was a very strange feeling
it reminds me so much of me and holly, but i'm not sure how it can, since surely our experiences together only match the first half hour of the film, with the under-age drinking, bad house parties, the losing of one's virginity, etc...
the rest of the film seems to be a premonition of what our lives would/could have been like, had we not moved apart
and that is not the happiest of scenarios
in fact i didn't realise the film was quite so utterly depressing until i watched it this time
it is still so completely 'us' though
for example:
me and holly got well and truly pissed last night, we were sat on the kitchen floor drinking vodka and eating chocolate ice cream, and listening to alkaline trio. then we watched american pie again, and vowed with our glasses of lambrini raised, that we too "will get laid!!" hehe as per usual, then started the sex talk which lasted pretty much all night, with the only interruptions being for us to drunkenly sing [shout] random lines to blink 182 songs or when holly made us bod outside so she could throw up directly in the middle of her back garden path.
that was in my original diary
i was reading through it in the vague hope of finding that girl's diary i was talking about last night
[sadly i haven't found her, so far]
i haven't really had a 'me without you' friendship since
with laura it was a little like it, but things got confused by sex more than anything else
i still found myself returning to my familiar 'holly' character though as i had to explain to her calmly, when she got into hysterical floods of 'marina'-esque tears, that i did love her and we'd still be friends even if we didn't live in the same city anymore
with hannah i've never had to play either role
i think we're good for each other
she emailed me yesterday asking if she could come live on my floor
i said 'anytime...'
