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must remember i have to go see 'jim' at the bank on thursday

i have a feeling i'm supposed to be spending the day with james

i had a dream last night that we broke up

he had some new girlfriend, a brunette [obviously] who was much skinnier and worryingly younger than me, who i think may have also been pregnant

and he told me, quite matter-of-factly, that [obviously] i wasn't even second choice after her

i came somewhere after her, heidi and a bunch of other random people he'd rather be fucking

check out my [non-existent] self-esteem!

i'm really not sure what's wrong with me lately

oh yeah, then in the dream dan turned up and i remember crying and crying and him ignoring me and me crying some more...

then i woke up feeling absolutely exhausted and quite honestly shocked to find a beautifully naked james fast asleep next to me

i need to do some art...

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