xchoice thoughts x
i haven't been sleeping well
and i've been getting really bad headaches
and me and james keep having pointless fights that he thinks are all my fault, even though the first thing he said to me yesterday was 'i hate everyone, i'm so fucking stressed' then shouted 'fucking cunts' just because he couldn't find something in his car
he also woke me up this morning shouting something about needing to fix my carpet and when i didn't reply [i was actually asleep] he shook me and kept shouting 'are you awake?' at me until i was, vaguely, then wondered why i wasn't too happy about it
i got a txt later saying he didn't mean to wake me up, he just wanted a hug
i'm not sure if he's trying to be a] funny, b] cute, or whether he's c] actually fucking insane and has no recollection of anything he does
he also still hasn't noticed that i've cut my hair...
[and i don't care how much of a needy girl that makes me sound]
in other/better news:
steve added me on facebook and we had a 'romantic' break from work yesterday, in which the lights went off for no particular reason and two separate people [one of them was dean, surprisingly] joked about our table missing candles and flowers...
i just ate my peanut kit-kat, because there were no sandwiches left in the machine, and smiled when i caught steve's eye because i'm pretty sure he was thinking the exact same thing as me:
it's a bit late for romance when you've already got cunted on vodka/bacardi and fucked each other through the early hours of sunday morning
